adam's Journal

.whats going on? i always wanted to know.
ok i just got back from vacation. and there's someone trying to be me. calling him/herself kid_climb_trees, i'm the real adam, the others guys bullshit. and they stole the damn picture i have, so don't read his/hers lj anymore.

Current Mood: confused

.change is never bad.
ok..so i got a new lj username and that is ' kid_climb_trees ' and i started a community called ' KidsClimbTrees '...the community is for writer/artist of any kind to show their abilities and to climb and develop themselves as writer/artist....so check it out and join if you have stuff to post..i'll update more later.

Current Mood: blah

.there's this girl in know, she cries all the time.
work was slow today. i made sixty dollars with isn't to bad. i really have to go to the bank soon. i have a lot of money to deposit. susan where are you? i need to talk to you. so i'm getting to the point where i stop caring. or i think i'm already there. fuck. i need to escape for awhile. man i can't handle this right now. i have to work five to ten tomorrow, then we'll see what happens ... i don't really want to go out. i don't really want to see anyone anyway.

she says that she'll change for me, there's only one thing i would change. but don't change for me, change for yourself. i wouldn't want to make you into something you're not. i know what it feels like to be in a cage.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: elliot smith 'miss misery'

.maybe i'll be alright.
lately things just don't look good. i'm really trying to break free from my binds. i have to work tonight, maybe that'll be exciting and meet some new people. people should come visit me tonight i think. that would be great. i hope i make a lot of money and it's really busy so i don't have time to think about shit. i didn't do anything today either. i just didn't feel like leaving my house. oh yeah daisy i need to search for my plug in your car. thats all i can handle right now.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: bright eyes 'you will, you? will, you? will"

.i need some attention.
eighties night was sweet..and dennys..yumy the place to go when you're durink....meatlovers skillet...scramvled eggs and sourdough toast...then me and da da da daisy hung out for awhile..this aching in my heart won't stop...yeah michelle i miss you, sorry you won't probably read this but whateves....pachow! ... i'm such a fuck....... i'm sick of being sad.....i'm sick of being lost .. whao i'm sick of life basically....well i'm sick of being awake..sweet dreams cuties.

Current Mood: messed up
Current Music: brand new 'i will play my game beneath the spin light'

i'm sad. i'll update later.

Current Mood: sad

.be my audience.
today i worked from four to nine. i made about fifty dollars which was fine with me. tomorrow i shall work again. but i have a dilemma, i was supposed to play at a jazz recital. but now i can't and i'm pissed about it. ah well i need the money. i'm also thinking about getting a new lj, but don't want to lose all the memories i've created. i'm debating though. me and danny had our normal tuesday night of drinking and watching stupid shit. we watched a little of 'eight legged freaks' and then kid notorious which is such a great show. then i came home. and here i am. there i go.

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: jeff buckley 'please send me someone to love'

.why take turns, when you could go straight through.
climb out your window,
to cheat your lovers heart.
as i stare at the same thing,
thats staring back at me.

i'll read the letters,
some don't make sense to me.
the music would peirce my ears,
like you would peirce my heart.

send me a card when you get there,
so that i know you're alright.
give him words off your lips,
the words that came from mine.

at least you're not alone,
and ending up like me.
trying to find myself,
with no map to read.

and i'll make the wrong turns,
forgetting who i am.
my eyes just deceive me
when i glance at mirrors.

i'll sink in my bed,
drown myself to sleep.
and hope on the stars,
your keeping those promises
you said you'd always keep.

.you're as lost as me.
tonight was pretty sweet i guess. i went to ambers birthday party with jen and april. to bad it was kind of ghetto, so we left. sorry amber i hope you had a happy birthday. then went to aprils house had a few beers then i came home. then i ended up going to the pink. and my buddy eric wasn't even there. but his fiance was. what the fuck i was pissed. now i'm home tired, angry and trying to find myself but still can't seem to find me. i have to work at two today. i better get to bed. goodnight. i'm hungry. shit. i hope i'm not asking to much.

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: brand new 'soco amaretto lime'

.crawl over it.
i worked from three to seven today. and thats four hours, i made sixty dollars. so thats so fucking sweet. i'm happy about that. tonight i guess i'm going to ambers birthday party. i just better get really really drunk. or i'll be mad. so i'm going out now for the night. and oh yeah i just realize some anonymous post in my journal that were fucking stupid. so who ever wrote those i think there were like two of them. please stop writing them and hiding behind your computer screen. shit like that i don't need in my journal. thanks.

Current Mood: can't complain to much

.where did she come from?.
work was lame tonight. i got out early made decent money, not to great. but ah well, what are you going to do?. and tomorrow i only have to work until seven instead of ten which is kind of sweet. i'm going to read a little and then hit the hay. goodnight.

Current Mood: crushed

.couldn't find the words.
today was kind of boring i guess. i got up for my doctor appointment, and i thought i wouldn't. woot. i'm going to be getting off zoloft and i'm excited about it. then i sat around. got some subway. came home took a nap. woke up went to jam with dave for a bit. that was interesting but fun. now i'm here killing time before i go to work. i have to work all weekend. tonight ten to six, tomorrow three to ten, and then sunday two until nine. but i'm alright with that. ::sigh::

Current Mood: hopeful

.in the dark night you're scared.
so i ended up going to rumor's tonight. then went to pyrkos's for a beer. then i went to denny's by myself cause i'm cool like that. i hope to god i get up for my appointment tomorrow. i'm really tired. holy crap. i'm going to sleep. just thought people would like to know what i did tonight. i'm miserable. fuck.

so go off with your other man,
he'll take you by the hand
and tell you that you're pretty.

but make sure that he understands,
that you will be leaving him
when a new day comes along.

your knees stay on the ground,
but your head is in the clouds
so just keep offering them your heart.

then go off and chase the sun,
maybe it will make this burning gone
or maybe not when you realized it set.

in the dark night your scared,
so let the black reflect your face
like the mirror that shows your pain.

you always looked better that way anyway.

Current Mood: ugly

.while you go there, i'll just stay here.
i got a ninety four on my project. that makes me happy, it was pretty damn good for doing it in one night. i had my jury for school today also (jury is playing music for people and them grading you) and i did very well. i have to work today at four to nine. as of right now i don't feel like working but i'm sure once i get there it'll be alright. i hope i make lots of money today. we shall see what happens. and tonight who knows what i'll do.

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: bright eyes 'saturday as usual'

.let her go.
good thing i called off work today. i got my project done for my class. woot. and oh yeah. i hate glue sticks i haven't used them for a long ass time. and now i know why cause they suck. i picked up danny from jackies then we came here and finished off our beer. it wasn't a lot though. ah well. i don't think i'm going to eighties night tomorrow. i wish i could. but i need to save some money and i have a doc appointment in the morning. if i do go i won't wake up for it and i have to go. next week is a definate though. sorry if i caused any disappiontment. i'm off to sleep.

Current Mood: alright
Current Music: kevin devine 'this box is empty'

does anyone have a lj code i could have?

.it's easier when you're not alone.
last night me and danny drank beers and watched snatch. that movie is great. then michelle ended up coming over my house a little later. we had a good conversation. so today i'm tired, of course. i called off work today so i could get school work done. thank god this semester is almost over, holy shit i'm so sick of school. my manager gave me a hard time about calling off but the manager working tonight wouldn't care, so who cares then? i can't wait to have a nice long break from school. i also have to clean my room today, it's a fucking pig pen in here. i'm done here.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: bright eyes 'the trees all get wheeled away'

.to chase or chasing away?.
i feel like crap today. all i want to do is sleep. and i hate it. maybe there's something wrong here. hmmm. well i'm off to work in a short while untill nine o clock. and after that who knows.

i don't want to hate you, but i could easily do it. so calm down, and one more thing, how does it feel to fuck a clown?

Current Mood: apathetic

i seriously don't know what to do anymore.

Current Mood: depressed

.just keep running.
today me and danny went to the mall. i bought pants. woot. brown pants. then i hung out with april and jen. played asshole. and wow, you guessed it i was the asshole most of the time. yup, story of my life, i'm such an asshole. anyway, i feel crappy as fuck now. damn it. damn it. damn it. damn it. mcdonalds has 'new' chicken nuggets now made with white meat. i really don't understand that. haha. what the hell were they made of before? sleep time. the only escape from my misery.

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: john mayer 'comfortable'

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